RHOC

I know I am a week behind with this episode. I don't even know what to say about Tamra's "Etiquette Party", so I'm not going to say anything at all about it right now! I'd rather write about Episode 7 where all the housewives attended a horse race at the Del Mar Race Track. I am disappointed in Tamra and Vicki's behavior! While I find it really entertaining, it was mean! This is why I've always loved Jeanna. She is the only truly classy one! Even in the midst of the drunken debauchery going on last week, she was quietly doing the right thing giving Gretchen water and trying to steer her in the right direction...away from Tamra! She was just a little classier.

Anyway, this episode really hit home for me. Recently, I've been going through some changes. Perhaps I'm growing up a bit and I'm starting to notice myself handling situations with my friends differently. I am starting to stand up for myself in a way I never have in the past and I'm not tolerating people treating me poorly.

This picture really says it all.

Lynne said at one point in this episode, "I'm just trying to be friends with these ladies. I don't know what their problem is." I feel you, Lynne! In my quest for true friendship, I attempted to get closer with a group of girls, one of whom is in my wedding. She's lovely and I've known her a while. She and I have a group of mutual friends, and she also has another group she hangs out with. Their husbands are all buddies and the girls have a book club. Only it seems I (and B by default) are not really welcome in this group. I received the message this Fall, and have since backed off. I'm over it now and have done much refection and realized that their snobbery really says more about them than it does about me. Now that I've accepted this, I feel comfortable writing about it! But I just felt so badly for Lynne, because I understand! My friend is like Jeanna and is just cool with everybody, but some of the other girls acted like Tamra and Vicki.

In addition to all that, one of my other bridesmaids and my "best" friend hasn't spoken to me in 6 weeks! The crazy part? I'm not upset! I actually feel much more relaxed. Like a weight has been lifted. She was putting a lot of pressure on me to maintain a level of friendship she was not willing to give. Perhaps we weren't really best friends after all?

Maybe 2009 is a time for me to "clean house". I know that's strange to say, but I have some great friends in my life. People who I am so grateful to be able to call friends! Why should I allow other "friends" make me unhappy? I'd rather work on nurturing my good friendships. But what to do about the wedding? Have any of you gone through something like this? Its almost like a cleanse for my life! Thanks goodness sometimes of all my "bloggy friends"!